I haven't updated in a while so I figured I'd do so...
I haven't heard Ronnie's voice since Sunday morning...He tried to call me this morning over skype but I missed it :( I was laying on my phone so I couldn't hear it. I can't even begin to explain just how much that sucks. He sent me a short message over Facebook saying he'll try again tomorrow if his internet is working...I hope he does. He was only able to talk for a couple minutes on Sunday and I haven't talked to him more than 5 minutes at a time (a total of three times I think) since he's been in Afghanistan. It's really beginning to suck.
I think it's finally sinking in that he's deployed and not coming home for a year. This is the most awful feeling in the world...I know we can do it, I just have to take it one day at a time.
Well, tomorrow is my 21st birthday and I'm going to dinner with some friends. That's really all I have planned...but I would give anything to just see his face for my birthday. He has been gone every other birthday since I turned 18....here for my 18th, gone at OSUT training for my 19th, here for my 20th, and now we're both missing our 21st birthdays together. It's not the fact that I'm turning 21...alcohol really isn't a factor. I just miss him, that's all. I miss his smile, his hugs and kisses, his laugh...and just holding me when I have a bad day.
Oh, Lord please grant me the strength to get through this year<3
I haven't heard Ronnie's voice since Sunday morning...He tried to call me this morning over skype but I missed it :( I was laying on my phone so I couldn't hear it. I can't even begin to explain just how much that sucks. He sent me a short message over Facebook saying he'll try again tomorrow if his internet is working...I hope he does. He was only able to talk for a couple minutes on Sunday and I haven't talked to him more than 5 minutes at a time (a total of three times I think) since he's been in Afghanistan. It's really beginning to suck.
I think it's finally sinking in that he's deployed and not coming home for a year. This is the most awful feeling in the world...I know we can do it, I just have to take it one day at a time.
Well, tomorrow is my 21st birthday and I'm going to dinner with some friends. That's really all I have planned...but I would give anything to just see his face for my birthday. He has been gone every other birthday since I turned 18....here for my 18th, gone at OSUT training for my 19th, here for my 20th, and now we're both missing our 21st birthdays together. It's not the fact that I'm turning 21...alcohol really isn't a factor. I just miss him, that's all. I miss his smile, his hugs and kisses, his laugh...and just holding me when I have a bad day.
Oh, Lord please grant me the strength to get through this year<3
I kinda know that feeling. Trevor wasn't here for our first anniversary and now he won't be here for our second. Be strong and I'm just a text away.
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